"What Are You Doing With Your Life Now?"

I was hoping, when I was fixed, to announce that I was back to normal. I was hoping to tell you all that I can do the majority of sports, I am dancing, running and excited to return back to my life training to be a stunt woman. But, I think everyone when they've been through a serious injury, hopes to return back to their old life but in most cases that doesn't happen.

When you have any type of serious injury you forget that it will always affect you long term and that it will always be a part of who you are. When you recover the doctors and physios have to break the bad news and in my case it was; stunts will never be an option, most sports won't happen till the very very very far future, if ever. My ambition since the age of 15 was to be a stunt woman and I trained my life to accomplish this goal and every choice I made from that age was to achieve my dream.

That's why it has taken me so long to write this blog, as how can I write about myself when I'm struggling to know who I am.

It's difficult being told to discover yourself again and your career, hobbies, aspects that make you happy and social life, as I feel like I am a stranger to myself.

Obviously other aspects of my life have changed and although some of you may be reading this and going its only sports... you have to trust me when I say sports were my entire world. I did activities 6 days a week as that was my social life, my happiness, my ambitions and in my eyes, my future.

It's like I've been reborn at the age of 21 and everyone is saying decide what you want to do for the rest of your life right this moment.

Hypothetically you get told at the age of 18 you have to choose what you want to do for life and you are discovering that throughout your whole childhood. Meaning, you have all of the secondary school which is 7 years to discover what you want to do. And I am being told I have to figure that all out again within a year. Whilst being this new soul that is figuring out how to take her first steps in the big world. That's a hard decision to make.

I have plans and I am figuring out where I belong and what makes me happy. I have a few ideas for where I am heading but it is a lot of pressure! A lot has changed for me all round and I am working on it!